Pleasure and Desire in Midlife In November of last year, I was bubbly with excitement about my life. By December, I was a weepy, barely functional mess. Nothing changed over that month. The excitement was over my recent move from Berlin to Lisbon to take up a six-year research fellowship. It came after fifteen odd years of zipping around between different countries for much shorter postdoctoral gigs and, most recently, a year of nerve-wracking unemployment in which my academi